..U nVr KnOw WhOsE fAlliNg iN LoVe WiF uR sMiLe...

2009-12-02T21:48:00.000-08:00

eyes totally swollen. actually i wonder if one could ever stop crying cos the pain seems to get worse. i felt like i could go on and on. and the pain is still etching there.
in the day, i dont really dare to think, cos i dunno if i could reel myself back in time.

if only i could wake up craddling in your arms, with you telling me that all this is just a nightmare

how i wish to be really surrounded by the happiness that u put into me and lit a smile on my lips.

2009-11-09T06:03:00.000-08:00

pw op is finally over. after the year's preparation for it. its over. time really really flies but i enjoyed the time spent with my group and learnt a lot from each other. although i did not do very well for my QnA im just glad and thank God for giving me confidence and calm during my presentation.

i thank the support my grp mates have given me, and working with critical thinkers is rly fruitful and enjoyable.

now, i have to start studying hard for my chem repaper on the 23nov. hmmm with just IR left to be handed tmr, i feel lost and the spare time seems to be actually a medium to breed more thoughts.

again, i could hardly bathe today, with tears mixed with waters running down my face.

why why why is it so difficult to be happy.

i wish i realy could turn back time. so that i could love u more the times when u love me so much. thats my one big regret.

now, having been thru weeks i find it really hard to go back to the once innocent times, when i was really happy.

mayb the problem lies with me rite. that im demanding, that i expect too much.

i tried to change but its so hard. cos u stop appreciating

now i unstd what they mean by love is such a painful thing

i really dunno what to do. either way, im sad

its time to leave and set out on my own path

2009-11-05T09:17:00.000-08:00

happy birthday daddy (:
wish u good health and we be a happy family forever (:

2009-10-11T02:44:00.001-07:00

i wish i will know what happened.
i hate to be left hanging like this.
i feel all alone.

2009-10-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

thanks for the bluberry cc yesterday and the c bread.

i pray that you get well soon. drink lots of water. take great care of yourself cos i cant really help much. besides all i can do now is send smses which everyone can also do the same.

you wun listen to anything i say anyway.

or mayb u already have others to do it for you...

i dunno how much i really matter anyway.

2009-10-08T05:38:00.000-07:00

Today, a big black cloud blew into my world and enshrouded me in the chilly darkness. After that, there was still lightning to blind my vision and thunder to jarr my ears. Before this, i was already surrounded by gloominess, its as if all was not enough.
I remembered the last time i was so upset about my results was during my pschool days, i forgotten whether it was p3 or p5. I scored 78/100 for my maths exam. All along i was allowed only a band 1- 85 above and usually i got a 91 and above which is an A*. Its so long ago and besides that i hardly had a time when i got worried about my results, or more like i never got a shock when i received my papers. All along i could at least get at least what i had given, although not the 100% that i sowed, but at least 70% of it.
I will never forget how my maths promo paper gave me the shock today.just blew me off for a moment, that i hardly believed what i saw, that when he told me "its very badly done", how i wish he would cont with "just kidding", that when i counted my marks, i hoped so badly to see some sort of wrong calculation of marks.
No.
None of it came. The papers after did not seem to matter to me anymore. Im numbed. For the first time, i felt such a big loser. I felt as if whatever i do will not work. I hate it. But i cant help it.
Im so glad my tchr talked to me about it, even looked through my paper. Maybe its my carelessness, maybe my complacentness, maybe i just dint do enough practices which i kinda think so, mayb i dint practice with time, mayb its exam stress, and some others which i dunno if they are reasons..i hope not. cos they did come during every paper of mine
All the complications, i hope i knew what to do, i hope i know why, so that i will not take the long road.
God please lead me the way, this is truly a wake up call for me, to make me relook and rethink all the things around me. Some things i have brushed aside, i really must think thru it given this time as next year is really an important one for me and that i wun wan anything to mess it up. I just pray whatever is planned for me, is the best outcomne for everybody. But for now, im truly lost.
I kinda lost the confidence which my mummy helped built up in me when i was in p6 to sec 1. When i was too shy to even speak up in front of friends. Dun let me go back to starting point.

Thanks to those who stayed with me today. Really thank you so much rachel. I pray all goes well for you too. That it wont hurt so much for you. Hope that joy and seewei wont be so upset. Everything will be fine.

In the past, i remember you were always there at the gates looking at me from behind it. I never notice much cos whenever i turn, i will see your familiar shadow there. I never worried about turning away.
As time passes, your figure seems to fade into the surrondings..It became so hard to spot you. But nevertheless when i called, you would still come.

But today in my darkest hour, the gates grew heavy with moss and willows, you were nowhere in sight. No matter how hard i called out to you, there was nothing in return, only the cold harsh wing slapping onto my cheeks.

Lost, hurt, lonely.

2009-10-06T22:15:00.000-07:00

Its so long since i updated. I guess my blog died so long ago that no one would remember, which is the whole point.

Many things have come and gone, some good some bad. Some that i wished i had cherished much more when i had it. Cos no matter how hard i wish now, it will not ever be back i guess. In front of others, its best to be happy, esp my friends as i dun wan them to worry for me, and even if i have told them what could it do? just add on top to what they have already worried about.

I read sop's blog yesterday, she talked about the bottle of happiness that she wanted to give all of us. Everytime i see a friend upset, thats what i wish i could do to, tell them be happy, and they would be. But happiness just comes so hard. Maybe the only time we will be happy are the times when we are young and crawling, and memory from it is all but a blur now. And for me, besides the baby times, theres also the time when i was in primary one and the time around nineteen months ago. Those were the moments i really felt truly happy. The kind of feeling that just bubble through my whole being and its so overwhelming i seem to forget the world around me.

i am really grateful to each and every of my friends around me, esp my darling chics, who will be always there. Despite the harsh tones, they are really just showing their concern. I hope we will always be there for each other.

For some who are on the breaking point, i hope i can be there for you, even though my help to solve ur problem is minimal, i just wanna let you know that im here for you. Cos i know some things, only the people involved in it are able to settle, and i cant do much..

I thank you for the happy times you have given me, and truly, its the small thoughtful things that touched me most. That till now i still remember and smile at the small sweetness of it.

I have matured from the way things changed, from the way you changed, and as i learn more, i realised i dislike the reality we live in.

Maybe it so much better to be deceived.

To live in a decieved world.

Maybe the past past months, i have been living in your deceived world, thats why im so happy.

And when i peel off the facade..

Its felt so painful when i fell down, and even worse when i hid it all behind a smile.

I want to go back being a child. This world is too harsh, for all of us.

我的快乐，会回来的。。。

2007-07-07T09:18:00.000-07:00

haf been bzbzbz...anywae todae...ok ystrdae ..damn cool 07/07/07, livearth...

next wk got chem test=(, n oso syf presentation on tues...but i tink still muz go mep=((.....

todae oso got d co handover...anywae..lazy blog so shall kope from cky blog..haha...d pics we took at tm starbucks when doin macbeth poster tgt...she all put nice nice le wif eefects so: thx CKY(=

our macbeth product=))

we did our work lo...

BUT......

camera fun !! haha..LOLS

we r rich..StArbuCKss....hot choc..

d curtain's fun to play...BUT...we din realise how much dirt its filled with..EW..
effects done wif thx to CKY..haha..i shall ask mi cousin install for mi!

Tts all for the time-being, o yEA, mi darl cousin came bac from aussie todae...wonder when can go out wif her but she came mi house today help mi install stuff..haha

n anywae i rarely had pics on mi blog is cos mi hp camera spoil le=(( game spoil camera spoil...sad larhh..

not much time to blog...n some things i rather not talk bout dem here...

tts wad secrets are for rite

2007-06-13T11:49:00.000-07:00

finally can use sms le..haha...counter was 1002...d 2 exceed one muz feel honoured n d 1000th one muz feel damn lucky...n i sent mi first one oso le...haah...to d same person whom i send the exceeded ones to....

anywae sick of doin chem le..still got so much hol hw undone...arghh...nth much to say...shall upload some pictures...cos pictures speaks a thousand words..haha.....

mi n mi darl brother...haha..we rarely haf pics tgt..took tis lik so late in d night in our room...

2007-06-05T09:32:00.000-07:00

05-06-07 -- so cool...today mi mum bdae...oso hwee2 i found out..anywae we went orchard den go crystal jade kitchen for dinner...mi idea...den in the end the food i din even enjoy cos mi thraots hurts lik shit...pain till i sit dere n was tinkin whether one could die from d pain of sore throat....den rite...i damn sao xing...go c doctor..haha...on mi mum bdae..

anywae in the mron went for co com interview....i was lik after alyssa...first was hui min den cheryl, alyssa, me, serene, jia qian, yue wan, jiayi, prida.--keep complaining laoda purposely put her d last one haha...anywae i wun sae wad happen inside but after the interview...mine felt lik 20 plus min, i tink they had a motive behind every question n wad they did to u inside *hint hint* ahah...all mi ques were rather serious n some i was stumped...haish...nvm...n i din realli kena those ques tt we all feared most..haha...cept for e last ques by keewei i tink...Da3mN serious one...but cant say here xP..haha...muz go slp le...sick doc sae slp early

2007-06-04T09:30:00.000-07:00

so sian of doin la reflections...dunno wad to write...

anywae...im not pissed wif anyone....juz tt i dun wanna b called tat...

...if can avoid...

...i would....

2007-06-04T06:40:00.000-07:00

one word i hate : scandalous

2007-06-02T09:58:00.001-07:00

almost a wk of hols gone...

bsp camp was rathar shien cos of the lectures but felt lik pig lar...6 meals a day..which is lik almost munch after very lecture. the best part of it was actually the wen yu wan hui where each performed an item n oso a sch item...present were 4 schs as follows: nanyang girl's, hwa chong, river valley n dhs...haha mi group members all seem to lik our grp haha...liu xin.bin...

lucky can bring hp else i tink i wuold haf died during lectures..n thx for whoever who reply sms or called mi..HAHA..at least cheer mi up....hmm..n pris lee...u ver good lo...dun come den actually u same grp as mi can..so ke xi..ahha...but mi grp got daniel n kia yi n michelle...o yea n d sports sch is cool lar..so big campus n d hostel is not bad..lik apartment...n d bedsheet is a nice shade of peach-pink? yea..ahah...mi dorm is 6 girls den 2.2.2 liddat sperated so i shared wif 'chio' jia yan..haha...jkjk...anywae quite fun lar..den we everytime kok d toilet cos got only 2 baths...den quite fast get bathed...thou we were released quite late n slept at 12 plus...both jiayan n cq is damn funny..they r each other's gay frens...n as if the audi not cold enuff cq muz chill us wif his cold jokes...all to do wif wrong grammatical chi sentences..after the camp we all co ppl decide go bac for co lo..so dedicated lo...ahha....actually dun wan go cos i in pe shorts...not ver approp...but wadver...so in order to reach dere faster we took taxi ( o yea haven return se taxi money!haha she go narrogin trip le)..mi, yiying, siew eng , prida....we reached dere lik 45 min earlier den d rest who took d bus provided all d way bac eunos mrt...den hor good lo..i cant play man jiang hong n i sight-readed d yao zu during the 15 min break...where jia qian juz quickly tell mi d fingering..lucky 3 page only n its not tt hard so i manage to play lo...se better lo...sight read on the spot during dazu n her rhythm is lik more accurate den the other zr..no offence...

den anywae fri oso got co but instead of test we got kangle!!ahah so fun lo..is captain's ball but from it i noe d juniors better...n juz lik tradition..TBy alwaes lose cos we haf no tall guys, lik e one from erhu n hafing guys is rare le....we juz succeeded in breaking the egg...po4 ji1 dan4...ahha...cheers man!...i scored quite a few haha..cos i juz stand near e captain n waited for ball come to mi den quickly shoot..ahah....finals was dyb n xyz...xyz won thou both had a close fight in shooting the winning shot n i concluded a lot of us dun lik to eat mp....anywae din support any..juz had fun watching...den later i was lik d only tby sec3 left...all go home bfore the finals den pig's dad fetch her....den girl snrs wan to vs guy snrs in vball haha...den i juz join in n d guys all so funny..cant realli play thou they looked lik they can...hmm...heights n age can b quite intimidating...

haven done much hw for hols...so shien lar...o yea!! co com interview is next wk tues=(((we tby shld plan to sae an agredd post tgt...best is..."yao zuo jiu zuo zui hao de..i wan b tuan zhang!'...

now mi throat is hurting lik dunno wad..dunno can go co on mon not..d best is to miss tues interview oso...

im so pro..haven hand in sanwen=)

anywae CKY...dun sae i din mention u in mi blog..here is lik wad u wan to c " u r such a nice sweet chio cheerful bubbly delicious(- can eat?) fren...o yea..n u got a sexy bod...haha....happy??...haha jkjk...but get well soon from ur cough=) c i so nice..n mi throat realli hurts lik shyt...

how wish d hols would pass more slowly...so can enjoy e slackin time..

but tian1 xia4 wu2 bu4 shan4 zhi1 yan4 xi2..

=))

2007-05-27T06:59:00.000-07:00

now holidayss le...dunno happier or wad..miss mi frens i guess..but d ting is hw sucks lar...got so much...

anywae many ppl go oversea le...so good lar...haha...dere is lik toyko trip..left on fri nite....den india trip left on sat n UK trip tat left todae....wad bout mi...BSP camp...dunno fun not lo...wad i only noe bout it is lik lectures? n they keep emphasizing tat we cant use hp and muz pay attention...cant fall asleep...is tis a kinda foreshadowing tat it will b supre boring??? dunno

den co got jixun and jia qian willl b alll alone wif hui min only i guesss..they will b d only two snrs....so sad lar...den hafta face d jnrs...so poorting can...serisoussly wads d point lo....but no choice they need ta go china wif shicheng i guess..even i go fri a bit lik extra can...cos its lik i haven even prac den go for wad test lar...thurs is lik not enuff to prac one????arghhh...

o man...i still haven pack for camp....which is held at a sports schoool...n i scared we will b allocated to bunk wif other ppl leh=((( as in is other sch ppl dere oso lo...den we may b in grps wif ttly no one tat i noe of....10.15 le....o yea juz now went out for dinner den bro use com den auto sign in so if i daoed any of u..u noe y

o N i m using the new com now can!!n it rawks lar...haha anywae we bought a new com new printer new keyboard new mouse new speaker...ok fine...is prac all new... n its alll in MI room=)))so cooolll...but i still cant do mi level camp san wen-.- cos rite d old com nid repair first...haish...den from dere retrieve data..but dunnno how long will tt take..so i guess i better find sum ki9nd soul ...most prob co one so can pass mi on fri when i go meet mi dooom...hahaha...gtg le...n dun miss horr...cos i will b bac in 3 dayss...muacksxx...=))

2007-05-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

todae lessons quite slack lar...but now muz momorise geog roleplay script--rmbr bring powder! and study for chem..haish..

anywae one ting i felt strongly todae can b summed up in a word: tOuCHed....

sumtimes u nvr noe how nice ur frens were till u get to noe them better...reall grateful...

fren in need is a fren indeeed--so true...

*touch mi d way i nvr felt...

2007-05-22T01:55:00.000-07:00

whee...tBy rawkss!!dhsco!!=)

nicest pic of mi n alyyo..haha her fav one actually

mi sop n ros..charlie's angels haha..d mini malaysia super hot...

yay...the3Hotspot rawks=)...at the palace gates den got 2 horses at side

haha..jia yan so happy we all wanna take photo wif her!

finally back after so long...

2007-05-22T01:07:00.000-07:00

haha..sosososososososososososososo long nvr blog le...so dead lo..lik dun haf blog liddat...its lik almost half a yr gone?? many things..interesting happy sad wierd agitating depressing sweet sour bitter hot things happen...LOL..haha but tis is lik d last wk of sch bfore the june holss=))) cant wait..but last wk still got irritating things lik LA ESSAY.. ACE PROPOSAl --haha nicky pro lo..group's idea got in..anywae stilll haf chi san wen for level camp one..unfair lar i alr did co one lo...

so far tis yr went two places: malaysia!! ahha one is go perform wif co--yay got GWH..hy say we gonna haf syf presentation around july..haha..den still got co concert den go msia 5days4nite..ver hectic but conclusion: thru all tis we improved can..haha..n more bonded to cca...i tink many of us who took part in syf even from other cca oso...(bonded is i much more close to pig n allyo)..cos some...dunno wad to say...den lEvEl CaMp wif 3H..haha got to noe class mates better lo n we got go shopping!!bought a bag,shirt tat says 'i lik my attitude' thou when ask wad isit i oso dunno xp...oso tea,strawberry choc..den got one toy jiayan buy for mi--so nice rite!thz so much haha..is squeeze d eye den all d kaka thingy come out..inside got one white rat damn cute..haha..but the it sorta a bit deflated--tink bcos come down from cameron highlands. juz lik when we go up tat time audrey the chips packet inflate till lik gna burst lo damn funny...den everyone so fascinated...

haish sad man...mi results din do tat well..cos ppl LIK SOPHIA hor get so many a's can..mi class ppl pro n hardworking lar...got lik A for physics, bio, chi!, la(din expect cos d test do backstory den regretted,juz passed only) den B for maths=(, chem , geog..ace sucks lar, pull down mi marks by 1 when samuel can pull up by 7 lar=(( tan bk ver bad lo everytime fail mi reflections one..haha nvm dun remind mi of ace proposal HAAH...shall work harder next half yr..but oso sian one...work hard seriosully--haha.. VEr tiring...

o yea n mep confirm is C or worse cos Rite imagine mi test only get 34/80 XY say above cls avg can! highest is lik 49.5 lo..mep is out to killed den oso die dun wan let us quit...wads d point but quit now oso damn wassted n a bit sad lar cos is lik u got one more yr to get 'o'level cert...DUNNO LARh...anywae dun go mep really find much more time to do mi work..anywae practicl i got 29/50-.- lt3 piano sucks, much worse den foyer, tot i was gna fail but din=)

tian shi rawks..cos im listening to it now..random..haha

o yea intercls so sad..both cls guys n girls lost lo..but i quite proud of d girls in mi cls lo.they put up quite a good fight n did better den expected..lost but NOt trashed..guys is 2 nil i tink..n cq gd lar tell mi is 10 nil..(pris: still d same i say ur STORY is interesting FICTION) den i asked d guys they scold mi lo..sae i tink they so lan4 ar..haha..anywae i only watched d 3i vs 3j match..den so cool lo..field damn muddy n they run tat time all d water splashed up..so seh..from tat match those 2g'06 girls present concluded tat 2G guys r seh..cos sam scored 3 goals n daniel scored 1...pris damn funny lo..was shouting 'omg samuel rawks!!' den her 3i clsmates looked at her wierdly, n she shuddup...haha..

anywae co now is damn stress lar...we snrs dun even noe how to play yet still muz teach jnrs..so seriosully muz prac ourselves first..n pig n alyyo gd lo..got go co rm prac n teach jnrs but dunno bout the others...HAIsh..den we muz help to teach their jnrs oso...

BSP camp from next mon to wed..den cant go jixun which includes many of us...jixun change to first wk cos they gg china wif shicheng...many ppl oso gg india n jap trip..lucky pok-.=i oso WAN haha...

tis post seriosully long ar cos got so many things to tok bout but shld stop here lar..nid do Ace n lA else tonite no nid slp le...

p.s.i love the themes sop send mi!!!so nice caan!!tyty n i not copycat=) hmm hao qi sha simao..AHAHAH..no link but ver funny...

o n if got time den post level camp pics!

love,

2007-02-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

HaPpY NeW yEaR!!!haha...im at mi grandma house..n my brother is like hogging the tv watching soccer=( so i sit here n rot so decide to blog since i usually dun haf d time...haha...anywae its so cool lo...we got fri off cos of good 'o'level results..hehe...not our hardwork but of our seniors=)n den mon tues no skool...wed is half dae cos of celebration...o yea tat dae valentine dae is so fun!!!haah...in d morn everyone were all running around gigving ppl presents...thx to all of my sweet frens for the presents!!!!!!!!!!really appreciate them=)=)hahha n of course hope u all lik wad i gave ur....n was really touched by the rose...n pris..u ar...sae is trick the guys den u turn around n trick mi oso!!hahaha but ver funny lo...n ver fun lar...tats wad makes v'dae cum frenship dae fun.....whee...its really a great dae n we all go to class tchr was lik can c our tables were all ver messy full of presents n sweets...hahah tchr jeal0ous lar...anywae ms seow so funny..gave the same thing as mr koh budden she sae hers id diff cos she got personalise...as in she chop her name on the paper n got write our names though all the msg is the same...but tis dae oso can b memorable for SoMe...as in not jus fun but evoke a lot of emotional tots....haiz not referring to any particuar ppl but u will noe who u are rite...if u felt any sparks tat dae...haha...write till here lar...need to go to mi another grandma house liao...bbyes...n HAPPY CNY again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-28T03:35:00.000-08:00

haha...priscilla juz send mi tis..in tis pic u could note some interesting ppl...

take for eg:

daniel-saw some hot girl far off on the track i guess..give him the benefit of doubt

BUT...

samuel-acting shuai...no doubt at all..HAHA..e rest of us r juz picture perfect=)whee..

2007-01-27T07:51:00.000-08:00

Whee...love us...cos we r one G' Spirit =)=)=)...fOrEvA..

those nvr come n take too bad...haha..dun come n scold mi say i nvr put ur picture in hor..next time ba!

2007-01-10T08:00:00.000-08:00

really love tis pic...thx daniel for sending it to mi...took it using nicky's cam..taken during first wk of skool orientation...we were hafing recess together....really miss 2G at times during lessons in 3H though it haf its own fun...but diff from the little things in 2G, esp the ppl n the silence during lesson times...

2007-01-09T05:36:00.000-08:00

haha...dun tell u got stead not...anywae juz wanna tell mi frens...esp...pris,huiyi, xinyi,dawn,nicky,daniel,shouyu,ben...tat i really love u all...i m REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY touched tat
1) ur all celebrated wif mi d special dae...n anywae its the first time i celebrate wif mi frens...so u noe wad kinda frens ur mean to mi...
2)ur bought me presents tat i lik VERY much...but more impt..
3)is e guys who went to get it n take so much time to wrap it so specially wif very InTeReStInG words all over....
even mi brother oso say he nvr c so nice frens bfore lo...i totally agree man...
anywae tat dae is so fun lo...its the company tat really matters n of course i muz oso thank mi parents..we went eat at p.ubin den go mi house swim...den jefferey* dun dare go down pool but after encouragement of mi xy n pris...finally went down...*names r kept anonymous for their safety..later cut cake we go bugis eat dinner...okay not really..more of taking neoprint...haha

bout mi new class 3H...okay lar..can get along...sitting wif sophia...tink tis yr all the tchr r not bad...seems nice to mi...shld b okay.thou i guess it will b a stressful yr wif trip. sci n stuff..anywae decide to take o'level music...those of u takin a'level i sincerely wish ur do ur best n good luc...hope ur would excel...n for those who got sap scholarship...of which i noe is pris n xy...congrats n jia you=)

hmmm...gonnna miss mi first dazu..haha...sherlyn will jump man...wheee.but wadvr..i dun wan sit there n blow wind...haha...only co members will understand i tokin bout...

2006-12-28T07:33:00.000-08:00

woah...its beeen a long(x10) since i had been online n updated mi blog...many things happened of course n i guess will start wif our last outing which turned out to b a niteamare...haha....guess it wasn as fun as our previous outings...mayb bcos of tat dampening rain n tat movie which really IS for kids ONLY...n oso ben a bit out of mood...poor xy...she hyper we arent n when we r she arent...haha...anywae i forgot to sae it was at vivo city but later we ended up at orchard=) but left only mi dawn n nicky...we eat take neo lo...

n one thing is dere was sumone hor who came wif 'qing lu zhuang' lo...both shirts from I.P. zone lo...i was totally not wearing the same canvas shoes ok...cos nicky oso wearing so it cant count!

n i was telling e truth todae n i guess u will finally belief tat i really dun lik him cos to mi its a fail considering 10% n tats is only when at times when he's nicer...tats all...n someone else on mi mind which i m getting it outta mi mind...cos its so ver wierd

n im not the mean one n i even he say he 'miss someone' hor i not really gonna believe cos yea...he lied twice

n stop calling mi some kinda pie can...its giving mi the bumps..pris! for crying out loud...haha

anywae its a new yr new frens n whole new experience but i wont want to forget the memories which i will bring wif mi along d future..including mi dearest frens...

2006-11-10T07:45:00.000-08:00

hmm...long time no blog liao...anyway i tink class chalet was quite a success..i enjoyed it a lot for one...to b able to b wif ur close frens n buddies...i actually go 2 day 1 nite den become i stayed over till 3 nite but so sad la...band ppl had to leave(nicky..ben..sy)..we bbq without tchrs..haha..basically we play vball watch movie n play cards...talk to each other...eat...bathe...nvr done them wif class so it makes it more fun...oops...i dun mean bathe together...as in leavin under same roof...thk those who made it possible loads..eus..nick..wj...

of course mi really great frens in mi sect too=)=)

i really really really LUV 2G'06...gonna miss it lik so much???

..HAIZ..

Good things alwaes hafta come to an end n wad u can bring wif u alwaes are the mEmOrIeS where i will keep close to mi heart fOrEvA...

*lUrVe u PeEps*

2006-10-31T07:10:00.000-08:00

today went to watch death note...feel slightly better lar...so long she does

tat aside...sometimes i feel its realli stupid...k more of poignant...to not like a person who likes u n like a person whom i guess dun even...even would ever tink u would ever lik them...

who m i kiddin?

actually do i realli lik him???

i dun wanna lik him

o man...pls dun...

2006-10-30T07:42:00.000-08:00

no one will ever understand d pain tat i m going thru...now or next time....

sumtimes i wonder y tis muz happen to mi.....

but i will nvr get an answer.....

i guess....

2006-10-30T07:24:00.000-08:00

sometimes i dunno y i'm living...it seems to come to an end...im really lost in d darkness...plunged into a very dark place...lost...

i juz hope a light will show mi d way...tis thing to b gone foreva...im realli tired...jus gimme a break...wonder how long i will last.........................................

ExAmSs oVeRrrr!!! dArN hYpEr

2006-10-07T01:08:00.001-07:00

yiippppppeeeeee........its finally over......budden i tink i wont do realli well cos i din complete science, maths, chinese....haiz so sad lo...all at least 5 mrks...budden still they r over....dawn fri sae muz put in at e bac of mi mind....dun tink readi...else wont enjoy
anywae i still will write bout it even ...nvm...
FRIDAE WAS SOOOOOOO FUNN.....cos mi frens RAWKS....haha...we play volleyball...it din went too welll..dunno how ta compete for interclass lo...but later we went orchard to watch movie..
so funny...john tucker muz die....but den i still prefer she's the man...anywae we sit lik boy girl boy girl....pick the movie ticket...mi row was hy,nicky,mi,ben...den seperated from us...cos not enuff seats...was pris,dan,dawn,sy
later we go morethanwords...shop round den ben was buying tis thing i saw on hb table e other dae...for her sis bdae tat juz pass...so nice bro..haha...but i oso very nice sis lo....
den pris,hy,sy,dan had to leave readi...so left mi,dawn,nicky,ben...
we walk round orchard went to The Heren, paragon, cineleisure...yea...tok tok tok....haha...go arcade for a while....not fair lo...at first mi n dawn thrash dem but apparently they catch up wif us in table footballl...haha...beginnin was 5-nil....very funny was when d ball got stuck..alwaes at dawn side where the goal is...both she n ben will lift up table at one side den bfore we can continue..haha sumtimes i take advantage den immmediately score...haha...

seriously e haze was terrible

den u noe wad...we went swensens for dinner....n so darn funny lo....we orderr kids meal!
den d person who served us was having tis half wierd n half laughin face...he ask us whose plate of spaghetti was tis...den we all lik ermm...den dawn sae all 4 of us order same thing....hahaa...tok bout being paiseh...but its alrite lar....den when all came we eat lo...duh...haha...d cup of coke oso very smalll leh...hhaha...den ben was laughing lik mad over it...den nicky keep takin photo..haiz...nvm...ystr i hyper so din realli hide...haha...actually all of us were....
next we decided to order ice cream...even more funny we were lik lookin for waiter...den i din c but dawn n nicky saw...ben turned round den he turned bac to see face to face wif a waiter...HAHA...den he got a shock lar..den we all started laughin again...anywae ice cream was 2 choc n 1 van scoop....
after eat readi we prepared to leave happily bfore realising we haven paid!lucky dawn reminded us...haha...else we surely get caught bac one....tat will b so malu
den after tat we walk round summore...yea...details dun wanna sae liao...budden anywae its damn fun....realli enjoyed miself lo...lucky to haf such great frens..luv ya=)

ExAmSs oVeRrrr!!! dArN hYpEr

2006-10-07T01:08:00.000-07:00

2006-09-23T20:26:00.000-07:00

exams....i m getting sick of it...tryiing to study so many subjects in juz one more wk bfore the horror begins...so long nvr go online...haiz...i tink i could fufill mi own promise....tis is the last moment....bfore the yr comes to a close....do mi best...tats all i can say...

anywae sad....flunked mi mep....mrs loke: prepare it earlier juz lik how u prepare for abrsm, cos the standard of mep prac is even higher den tat..its such a waste....i can hear tat u din practice enuff...actually u got the music...(i forgot wad...ability or sumtin) nvm...so sad dun wanna tink bout it...

gtg....only start geog n not even halfwae...haiz....maths papers all undone....

2006-09-10T06:55:00.000-07:00

haha...todae mi n dawn n hb went to buy present for pris at tm...they bought the da vinci code as i told dem she kept hinting to mi...but i bought a pencil case ( i really liked it lo) from wallet shop for her....den nicky told mi he go bugis to buy n he stuck dere not noeing wad to buy...ahha..anywae he saw got converse sale den went to buy...later we go mac to get a drink cos bin was thirsty...den sy called to sae he still doing mep report! n im lik come lar(n he didn come-.- but told nicky to send her his wishes)...den he ask mum budden cant come till he's done wif his work..anywae heard tat a lot ppl wrote lik 9 pages!!!juz bcos its not stated on the paper how many to write n oso a lot ppl no double spacing lo....anywae....later we met nicky at the bus interchange den we took bus to her house...we went up n saw pris watching liang po po haha...so free lo...anywae we went in thru kitchen den we walked in to the living room..den dawn lik walk pass her she didn even notice till she loojk up...she prac died from shock n tot she was dreaming or sumtin...den she started getting all teary as her parents had prepared food n told her tat its her father's fren who were coming...she den went to toilet to calm down bfore coming out....later we eat den we watch a movie tt her cousin called clarence acted in...yea...den later cut cake..we gave her the presents we bought....ahaha...nicky bought him a green n yellow handbag...i hoped she liked mi present which i bought her...anywae she looked lik she lik it...haha....den we watch the charlie's angels den go home liao....haiz...

tinking of it one wk hols over....haiz haven started revision...n haven even touch all mi papers...wads the point anywae....shld study first den do wad...which i apparently din...muz study mep first lar...next wk fri lo..so scared...gtg...better study else no time liao...tmr still got co...d last one bfore exams...it better b...suck lar....

2006-09-05T05:35:00.001-07:00

i m so damn happy!!!yay!!i got into inline skating...tis i muz realli thank pm for telling mi..n i helped wj switched oso..cos she oso realli wanted tat...anywae hb left to join self-defense-.-...sad....but oso muz sorta tk her...n thx nicky for getting mi a husband, ur good fren...

2006-09-05T03:12:00.000-07:00

haha..cant believe pris found out bout mi blog so fast ...but she sae she stumbled upon wan lar...haha...budden she nvr take note of the add so good luc in trying to find n its not too late for mi to put password..nvm mind lar...haha...anywae muz tk her for helpin mi ask timothy bout tmr art proj...save mi ear drums...hope hers r intact..haha...lucky nvr go for co...yue wan sae not realli interestinn can dun go wan...but oso bcos bro sick...alyssa wan die lo...go shopping instead of co still sae..gtg...dinner

2006-09-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

woah...so late liao...haha...juz finish mi geog...sian..tmr still got crap CO talk...lame lar...hols still haf...shld let us off alreadi...other cca oso dun haf lest got gala dinner...pity huiyi man...co from 9-5 for at least 3 days...tmr i guess i better start on mi art...so tired..now its lik 1.15am??yea...

actually i tink she got good taste lo..anywae..wanna slp...needn noe who i was tokin bout...

2006-09-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

juz finished lunch...haha...i juz rmbr sumtin...ystr was tokin to pris cousin...yea...n she was telling mi bout her klassmates...n dey r lik omg...so young...only around 11...n they haf done IT...i m lik whoa tats sick man...they r lik so kai fang dere tat i m shocked...n she told mi they started learning bout sexual reproduction n such stuff when they were in pri5 n summore is in depth one...n she sae d tchrs r sick...dey kinda lik 'demonstrate' u-noe-wad...ermm...sick tats all i can sae..one of her fren kinda got almost pregnant..she as in her fren...did not come after a mth..n they freak out...it came a wk later..n she realise got a ball of cells or sumtin being pass out....so she wrapped it up n brought it to a gynae...n was told tat it was 1 1/2 mths old!!! n it died due to lack of food...cos she was on a diet...so u noe..she kinda suffered a miscarriage...n the thing is the doctor didn even report her or sumtin cos at dere...they were not strict on such things...no wonder...culture really diff...scary...rmbr tat time pris told a bunch of us bout her cousin witnessing two person doin it when tchr come in or sumtin liddat rite...den i accidentally leak it out...n she kept askin mi who pris told..n i m lik one of our other close...n i sae is a girl n she relaxed...n she keep askin did nicky, whom she called nic n i kept tinkin nicole, heard it..n i m lik y u so wan to noe...n she sae cos she will feel embarrass n wonder wad a guy would tink bout her witnessing such things...hhaha....i wonder if dere si more than tat...tinkin bout wad nicky told mi the other dae..haha...no offence meant...

Inline skatin...inline skatin...inline skatin...haiz...

2006-09-03T08:39:00.000-07:00

so darn disappointed...i really didn noe inline skatin taken up liao...sad man...no choice...haiz...the rest...hy, xy, pris,dawn...they all they take golf...dun wan lar...tats sumtin tat takes a long time to master..i seen mi father's fren learn one yr still cant go onto the golf course itself...n i doubt i will ever need to play it till yrs later...n i guess by tat time i will forget it....slef defense...after wad hy father saed..i could choose btw tat n bowling...which i prefer....cos at least dere r more 2g ppl dere though i m not tat close to them but still better rite...ahah...wei jia is dere lar..n she said tat we could partner each other....though 'sHe' is dere but wadvr...those tat still dun choose ar...wish them luc lar...they will b lest wif tat soccer thingy i guess or mayb golf i dunno....but i chose bowling liao...its lik actually 75 out of 88 places...den i couldn make up mi mind....when i went dere n hr later...its 81 out of 88...den i chose i was the 82 person...so left onli 6 places....hahah....nicky n shou yu n ben all haven choose cos both ben n shou yu on hols n nick y wait to choose wif them...good luc den...anywae i very jealous lor..they can go holidAY...not fair...i oso wan...den pris sae ben go genting gamble....haha...anywae e school admin very stups lor...seriously lar...they shld open more places for hip-hop which only has a pathetic 19 places..but inline skating got 84 i tink...yea...seriously lar...tat dae when i came up to c tis thingy, i shld haf enter it den i will noe dere is limits so i could ask all mi frens to apply straight...tat was fridae lor....hb manage to apply for tat......she could haf told us.....haiz..really upset..nvm...i tink i will go learn ice-skating during the hols...how i wish i could....

regrets...too late....

2006-09-03T02:18:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahah...priscilla juz lemme listen to mr brown podcast lo...so damn funni...laugh till cannot make it liao....hahaha.....mee siam mai ham...
anywae i seriously pity u lor...noe such sicko pervertic guys...rather not noe dem...summore is u noe wad....sick...lucky he, mi fren, is not liddat...n is rationale enuff to noe wads priority...watch movie only when exams over....haha...sad lar...ur fren keep showing off...can b irritating at times...i understand d feeling...n i m not one of those teenagers in tis society who haf changed k..i noe mi priorty...but no harm dreaming=)...haha...u dream more den mi lor....

FiRst PoSt...here goes...

2006-09-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

haha...mi first post....funny for a person lik mi to haf a blog now tinking of it... oso dunno y i created tis for..as i m lik those who dun believe in a thing lik tis..out of boredom? mayb, mayb not...wadevr...but seriously now i dunno wad to blog bout...cos some things r juz private...anywae the profile is so wierd...when u put ur real bdae...the zodiac signs n horoscope comes out sumtin wierd..like for mi it came out a virgo n monkey...-.-...gave up lar...juz leave it blank...tinkin of tis..many of mua frens bdae r juz passed or round the corner...o man i still owe presents to christine n her bdae was juz ystr..haha...cos she got mi one..way long ago...n oso need to get one for pris n hb...whose approaching..as for pris...haha...she will luv her presents...o yea we got nicky a pair of billabong slippers...thankfully is not billa-abong ones..lik shou yu....AHAH...since i onli c him wearing sportshoes evrytim we do proj....sian..tis wk is totally not a holidae...soi many projs n oso still got co lar...tues for a stupid talk...fri der's lik fen zu n dazu, 9am-5pm!!sick....whoa...first blog n its so long...gtg alreadi..homeworks done: nada, eof exams revised: nada ( dUh) so y m i still sitting here??? hahah...gtg